Without A Word

Should not have done anything
Should have ignored everything
Like something I couldn’t see
Like something I shouldn’t have seen
Maybe I should have never gazed like this

I should have run away and
Act like I wasn’t listening
Like something I couldn’t hear
It’s something I should never hear
Maybe I should have never heard your voice

Without a word, you taught me how to believe
Without a word, you gave me my everything
But even as the breath you left behind remains
You’re always running far away
Without a word, my heart is leaving again
Without a word, my heart has thrown me away
Now how can I reply? This voice of mine alone could never do the same
As you without a word

Why is my heart so hurting
Why won’t it stop this hurting
Can’t see you here anymore
Just that you’re not here anymore
Apart from that it’s how it was before

Without a word, you taught me how to believe
Without a word, you gave me my everything
But even as the breath you left behind remains
You’re always running far away
Without a word, my heart is leaving again
Without a word, my heart has thrown me away
Now how can I reply? This voice of mine alone could never do the same

Without a word, the tears make trails down my face
Without a word, my heart keeps crumbling away

Without a word, I wait for you to return
Without a word, I take the pain and the hurt
Because I’m lost in time, you’re far away so I
Can only cry into the sky
Without a word, that star was searching for me
Without a word, that star drew nearer to me
My heart was unprepared when I sent you away – I wondered how you could just have
Appeared without a word

Without a word it may show
Without a word it may go
Like a disease from before
Maybe that’s what this hurt is for
So that there can’t be doubts here anymore

It's not about how many times you had my back. It's about the one time you stabbed it. 

And it is not just once.

And I'm not a saint.